Last night I had the opportunity to do something that very few people will ever do. I walked across 12 feet of fiery, burning coals.
This is actually a pretty well known event that Tony Robbins fans are familiar with, it’s just that only a small percentage of people will do it.
I had the strangest experience, and that was, uh … nothing. Everyone around me is talking about these transformative moments and how incredible it was and I’m just like … yeah we did that, that’s cool.
I thought about this all day. I kept thinking how crazy it was that when I found out we were doing it, I didn’t think much of it, I just figured if that was what happened at the event, then okay, I’d do it.
When we talked about it the day of, I was like “well yeah of course I can walk on fire” and then later when we were actually walking up to it, I kept expecting to get scared.
Even as the volunteer was shoveling new hot coals on the path in front of me, it never occurred to me to be nervous. It never crossed my mind that I couldn’t do it. I walked across with determination, landed squarely into the snow on the other side, and immediately was wishing for my socks, because the snow was so cold.
Yes I walked across flames and coals over 1000 degrees and I’m pissed my feet are cold LOL.
I stood on the cool grass before the bed of coals and flames and waited for my time with neither excitement or fear. No doubts and no anticipation. Pure acceptance and certainty.
What’s crazy is: I can’t decide how I feel about not feeling anything.
I always tell you guys, how you do anything is how you do everything. This case was no different.
If I decide I can do something, I always can. It takes me forever to make a decision that I am doing something, but once I make it, and I mean really make it in my soul, it’s as good as done. I am unstoppable. This is true for everything in my life.
I am the kind of person that doesn’t see obstacles. I am always looking for a solution and I find a way to get things done. I don’t understand people who say “can’t” because I’m simply a “how can I?” sort of person.
Really it sounds like there is no down side here right?
I think the part that is still sitting with me is: When something does not require a struggle for me, I often do not value the outcome. I can be having an incredible experience, something anyone else would be having 100 emotions about, and it is very matter of fact. I don’t celebrate my own success, really ever.
I just WALKED ON FIRE and wasn’t in the least bit impressed with myself or celebratory.
If I don’t value the outcome without a struggle, then I will continue to put myself in situations that present a challenge or make things difficult for me. Even if I have to create them myself via my own self sabotage.
I think I’m on to something here, and I’m a thinker, so I’ll be with this one for a while. I just wanted to share this with you, so that maybe you would stop and take a look at yourself tonight.
In what ways are you creating your own struggles so that you can align your life with your values and needs?
Do you need to feel needed so you don’t let anyone do anything for themselves?
Do you love feeling smart and capable, so you hang out with peers far below your level intellect?
Do you like to be known as the super mom so you don’t take care of yourself?
Are you so in love with chaos that you spend money you shouldn’t and leave yourself in a position of uncertainty?
Do you pick fights or look for problems just so you can feel something?
Remember, your thoughts control your whole life, and you can change them any time you want. First you must become aware of them.
Some deep thoughts for your Friday night 😉
Much love from snowy New Jersey!